Uncertainty in Life

We all know there's no manual. Despite cute little books that call themselves "instruction books" for life, there simply is no master plan. I'm not trying to sound pessimistic. I'm simply stating the way that I feel. I can tell myself that if I do specific things, my life will unfold in a certain fashion.  In 45 years, all I have found is that I can make choices.  I can choose to respond to what happens to me and only I can make those choices.  When Fiona first entered my life I knew nothing of grace. Through our painfully short time together I found my own grace, and life will never be the same. This grace has held my life in the balance and kept it in check. Minus the grace, I plummet to the bottom of the abyss. My life today is not what I planned. It is not what I expected. But it is forever and unalterably my own.